the Starseed’s grief of seeing potential for love unrealized in our family systems
When we break it down to its core essence, the wound that we carry from intergenerational trauma is not only because we have also experienced this trauma in real time. It is being a child who is still so close to their own soul and the essence of who they are whilst coming to terms with the lack of soul connection in the people around us as high frequency Starseed souls.
Let's not forget, a child's brain is in a theta state until they're age seven, so children also have a closer understanding of who they've been in past lives.
So, if we're ancient, well developed, high potential souls who are Starseeds and are here to be humanity’s teachers, many of us have actually deliberately chosen extremely difficult family circumstances. For example, I am an Andromedan origin soul. Another name for this is Mission Realm. We take on difficult missions because in soul space we know the power of our frequency and it is very common for us to choose family systems where abuse is a factor. The reason that we chose this is because we are so capable and we are able to seed the healing and light into our families. We are actually our family's teachers, and even though we have been younger than many members of our families, maybe on a soul age level we're actually older. We become wounded from our visibility of the spark of unconditional love in our parents that is beyond our reach. We acutely know that it is there but because of the intergenerational nature of this trauma, this becomes like speaking to a prisoner through a glass screen. You're on the telephone - you can see them, and you know that it's them - but they're somehow unreachable.
Personally, I've never thought about it like that until this was something that Thoth brought through me. So, I want to acknowledge and validate what it feels like to have proximity to love that you know exists, but then to learn over time that that love is in many ways inaccessible because of the coping strategies that your family members are using to deal with their own hurts. They are using these dysfunctional strategies to survive this human existence. Potentially with less tools than you have.
For some of us, we will be able to change our relationship with our parents and our family members so that we can have that experience of unconditional love with them. Even if we've been hurt, it hurts because we love these people. Many of us will not. But look at the lessons that it's giving us about Christ consciousness and unconditional love. Then finally, think also about the choices that you have to make, to disconnect from unconditional love in yourself, and the reasons why someone will make those choices. Every time there's a trauma, there is a fork in the road to choose fear or to choose love. If this experience resonates with you, the person behind the glass screen is somebody who chose fear too many times. So, are you seeing how senseless it would be to choose fear because of experiences that you might have inherited? Here's something that's difficult to hear but is also true; you didn't cause it, but you're responsible for not perpetuating it, and you're responsible for healing it in yourself. Once you've done that work, you then become capable of being a teacher by the way that you live your life for your family system. Even if they will never admit it, you are.
This is only possible & safe once you have healed yourself. You have become strong enough to not have active triggers in that environment. This is a difficult journey, but it's a journey that is absolutely possible,
If your family are not safe people, you don't have to have a relationship with someone to love them unconditionally. Unconditional Love is a state within yourself. We don't owe anyone anything unless it comes to be given wholeheartedly and doesn't cause resentment.
